Peejay's Blog

yehey

2006-02-06T11:27:00.000+08:00

an entry at last! hahahaha.. I don't really feel like bloggin right now but for you I'll do it *winkwink*. Nothing really going on right now, nothing new but still special. I'm currently typing my resume for the JTA (Junior Term Abroad). I don't really know if I want to go or not. Nevertheless, my parents want me to so I'd still have to try (if I'd be qualified or not). There are really a lot of schoolwork right now. I just hate it but I know God is there for me and will guide me in finishing all of these.. hahahaha. It has been a long time since the last time I went out for gimik. There's just really no time since I have been going to school seven times a week. On Saturdays I have law and on Sundays I have parish work.. hahaha! I really do not get enough sleep nowadays.. ambored... but there are lots of things to do.. hahahaha! miss you... yes you! hahahaha! feb 17 ha? cge i'll jst have to stop here na.. nothing more to say.. byebye!

summer na!

2005-04-21T08:10:00.000+08:00

yehey! summer na! i don't know if i should be happy with the fact na may pasok na uli! matagal tagal na rin since last na nagblog ako! hahaha! wala lang kasi akong maisulat.. wala lang.. ang haba ng mga araw ngayong summer.. nilubos ko yung 9 units ko e.. hahaha! wala lang.. 7:30-9:00 itm, 9:00-10:30 foreign language, 12-1:30 psychology.. hahaha! wala lang!

school again

2005-01-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL AGAIN

back to school again! actually nung wednesday pa e kaso ngayon ko lang pinost. i got my long test 2 result in math. ok lang siya. at least it's higher than my long test 1. ibinalik na rin yung mga papers namin sa english.. and as usual, b or c+! ang tipid kasi magbigay ng grade ni sir vincenz e! pero ok lang yun, karamihan naman yun yung grade e! may new year's resolution na ako.. wala ng dotA! at least i was able to follow this for the first week of classes this year. hindi kasi ako makasama nung umalis sila kasi may pe ako e.. malas! oh well.. hanggang kailan ko kaya masusunod ito? masaya yung wednesday and thursday ko kahit hindi ako nakapagdotA. yung friday ko naman medyo lonely. hmmm.. bakit kaya? ang aga ko pang umuwi! right after nung last class ko umuwi na ako! basically i went to school just for my subjects. wala akong social life sa ateneo nung friday. oh well.. hopefully bukas meron na! pero masarap talaga pumunta sa school basta walang subjects! hahaha!

hanging by a moment

2005-01-02T21:39:00.000+08:00

HANGING BY A MOMENT

life house

Desperate for changing

Starving for truth

I'm closer to where I started

Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I've held onto

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking

Completely incomplete

I'll take your invitation

You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I've held onto

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know

I'm running and not quite sure where to go

And I don't know what I'm diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose

There's nothing else to find

There's nothing in the world

That can change my mind

There is nothing else

Desperate for changing

Starving for truth

I'm closer to where I started

Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I've held onto

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know

I'm running and not quite sure where to go

And I don't know what I'm diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)

Hanging by a moment (here with you)

Hanging by a moment here with you

hehehe.. i was singing this song when year 2005 came! may nakakarelate ba? ako lang ata.. hehehe!

everything

2004-12-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING

lifehouse

find me here

speak to me

i want to feel you

i need to hear you

you are the light

that is leading me

to the place where

i find peace again

you are the strength

that keeps me walking

you are the hope

that keeps me trusting

you are the life to my soul

you are my purpose

you are everything

and how can i

stand here with you

and not be moved by you

would you tell me

how could it be

any better than this?

you calm the storms

you give me rest

you hold me in your hands

you won't let me fall

you still my heart

and you take my breath away

would you take me in?

would you take me deeper now?

'cause you're all i want

you are all i need

you are everything

everything...

do i love everything?ü.. i love you!ü.. cause you're everything!ü.. hahaha!ü

new template again

2004-12-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

NEW TEMPLATE AGAIN

yehey! may bago uli akong template! salamat po uli besty! nasira po ata yung pinalit niyo dati kasi biglang nawala yung picture e! hehehehe! ang cute po ng template.. uli! wahehehe! anyway, i jast came from the province. malas, walang internet doon! astig.. five days lang may bago na akong template at testimonial! kaso nung binasa ko ung testimonial ko nagalinlangan akong iaccept e.. wag muna! hahaha! well.. astig sa province! andameng dogs.. ang cute! vinideo ko pa nga yung isang dog na sinesex yung paa e! hahaha! bigla nga natumba yung dog e. nagpunta rin pala kami ng baguio! ang lamig! at least may nakuha ako sa baguio.. sipon! tapos ano pa ba? wala na e! hehehehe! eto na lang muna! thanks uli besty! you rock my world!

christmas

2004-12-20T15:42:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS

finally christmas vacation na rin! i currently feel empty because i have nothing to do! here i am waiting for my family to leave. we're going to the province to visit my aunt and grandmother. i finished packing my clothes. my parents still haven't started packing. i feel that we're going to leave the house after 3 hours! we were planning to leave 2 pm but its now 3:42 pm. well, i'll just reminisce what i did last week. during the past 2 weeks, my block were planning to have a christmas party. we were so excited. we even decided to have exchange gifts. so todo prepare talaga kami. we even argued where we should celebrate it. it took us a while to find a place. kim ong offerred her house so wala na yung problema namin sa place. we decided to have pot luck. nkaassign na nga sa amin yung mga dadalhin namin e. so nagprepare talaga kami for this party. guess what? hindi natuloy. all of it was cancelled, put to waste. so nung friday, we had exchange gifts. para ngang walang sense e kasi yung iba pinabigay lang. hindi pa personal! so almost 10 of us just decided to go to a restaurant to eat and drink. unfortunately, hindi ako nakasama kasi late na rin ako nakauwi sa bahay. there goes 1 party. siguro yung reason kaya hindi natuloy yung party kasi most of our blockmates preferred to spend their christmas parties with their high school barkadas. sana kami rin noh lumabas! kaso wala e! almost all of them are going to mhe's debut. saturday. may christmas party ang speed. i would've thought maraming tao ang pupunta. well, less than 20 pa ata kami dun e! inintriga pa ako ng speed! ang sama ng ugali! so after the christmas party, may plan kami ng scope boys and bombshells na lumabas. as i mentioned earlier, most of them would be going sa debut ni mhe! so expected na konti lang talaga kami. unfortunately again, ndi pa makakasama si ate anjela! so, kumonti pa kami lalo. nevertheless, we still pursued it. nagpunta kaming shangrila para manood ng movie! bridget jones lang yung pwede! e ndi nmn gnun kaganda un e! hahahaha! at least i picked 3 lines from that movie. 1st line: "i'm not angry, i'm just disappointed. it's worse than being angry" basta parang ganun, ndi ko maalala yung exact na line! haha! 2nd: "everybody deserves a second chance" 3rd: ito, censored na to!! hahahaha! ndi pwede sabihin! so after ng movie, we ate at california pizza ba yun? hahaha! well that was the only "christmas" party i had with my friends or blockmates! kahit konti lang kami at bridget jones yung movie sobrang nagenjoy ako nung day na yun! sobrang saya!para dun sa mga nandun nung tym na yun! thanks for making my day happy! cge, thanks for making my year happy na rin! well, mageend na yung year. kyo ung pinakalast na person na makakasama sa gimik for this year i think! except sa family members siguro! thanks again! sana makalabas uli tayong lahat! hahaha! merry christmas everyone!

blogging again

2004-12-02T20:37:00.000+08:00

BLOGGING AGAIN

i'm going to start posting entries again! it has been almost two months since the last time i posted an entry. a lot of things have been happening in my life that i don't know how to put all of those in my blog. something would happen, and before i start posting that event, another event would occur. tapos tatamarin na akong ilagay lahat noon. so it would end up at nothing. so ngayon lang uli ako nakapagpost ng entry. i'm happy with my life. things have been happening lately that i just can't keep myself from smiling. i have long breaks this semester. i spend those hours with my blockmates and friends. most of the time, we would play dotA at blueskies. we would also have our "bonding time." we would share "secrets"to one another. although i do not share my deep ones with them. there is this one that i couldn't tell. you know that secret. it is only you who knows. aside from god and me of course. it's my source of happiness. please don't turn it into despair. i trust you, i really do. just like what i said, i wouldn't expect anything. i'm just glad you did not leave. i'm contented with how you responded. thank you. i'm just not sure if you really meant it or you just want to make me comfortable. thank you again. i trusted you before and i would still continue to trust you. i don't know whether i should keep that secret. i really do not know. please help me. as of now, i'll just keep it to ourselves. god please help me in everything i would do. please help me in my studies. please grant my family and friends good health and long life. thank you for all your blessings. god, thank you.

new template

2004-10-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

TEMPLATE

yipee! i have a new template! thanks to my besty.. inayos niya blog ko! ang cute ng template ko!! parang c besty!! wahehehe!

first semester

2004-10-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

YEHEY

At last tapos na rin yung 1st semester! Matagal tagal din akong hindi nakapagpost ng entry! Andame kasing haslles sa school e specifically English! Maswerte lang talaga ako siguro sa teachers kasi yung mga nakuha ko ang tataas ng standards tapos andameng pinapagawa! Pero after nung sem there is this feeling of fulfillment. It's like living after passing through all that hell! Pero actually nakakachallenge lahat ng mga yun e tsaka may mga parts din na masaya! Halimbawa yung eyewitness report sa Intramuros, kahit na kailangang gumawa ng 5 pages na eyewitness report, fun naman yung naging experience ko. I just did not have the opportunity to put it into my blog because I alloted my time in doing that paper. Nagattempt ako once na ipost yung mga pictures dito sa blog pero hindi ko alam kung pano e.. hehehe!! Papaturo muna ako! Sayang ang cute pa naman ni Candice! Ay onga pala, kaya enjoy yun kasi yung groupmates ko nun si besty at si candice e! I wouldn't have enjoyed it kung hindi sila yung kasama ko nun.. hehehehe!! So going back to what I said earlier, tapos na yung sem! Siguro its time to unwind after those hell weeks! Pero actually, 1 week pa lang medyo namimiss ko na yung school e! Parang gusto ko ng mag second sem! Sana namaintain ko yung QPI ko! Para kasing nakakamiss yung mga tao sa school e! Miss ko na yung block ko! Sayang I missed the opportunity na makasama sa block outing, saya sana nun! Miss ko narin yung mga friends ko at yung iba ko pang blockmates! Kailangan ko pa ba enumerate? hehehehe! Sana magsecond semester na!! Tapos pag nagsecond sem na mgwiwish ako ng bakasyon!! hehehe!!

mirror

2004-09-14T21:21:00.000+08:00

MIRROR

did you not notice you are still alone? what did you say? oh, you have your friends. yes, but for how long? what did you say? forever? hah! there is no such thing as forever. someday you'll have to take different paths. they are not yours. you cannot control their lives! someday they will find their special someone! and you? you will be left alone! are you telling me to stop? no, i won't stop! why? is it too painful to hear? i know someday you're going to realize that i'm right. why don't you find your special someone then? you still don't want to? liar!! you're just weak!! don't give me those lame excuses!! what did you say? you couldn't find anyone? liar!! you had your chances. you had your opportunities. what did you do? you just passed through them! you did not even try! oh, were you saying that you also tried? yes, but is it enough? what did you do? you just gave it all up!! you're weak!! im telling you you're weak!! yes, i know it's not your fault. i understand you. you are just naturally weak! you just cannot find your strength in them. yes, maybe they are not really meant for you. don't you like her anymore? oh i see. you're looking for someone else? no? so you really don't want to? liar!! you can't fool yourself!! i know you want to. you're just weak! weak! weak! mirror mirror on the wall who's the greatest fool of all? of course it's you! it cannot be me! but then.. what's the difference *sigh*

math

2004-09-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

MATH

I woke up at approximately 9:00 a.m. to start my day. Free cut kami ngayon sa Filipino so isa lang class ko ngayon which is Math. 3:00-4:30 p.m yun so kahit na 2:00 p.m. ako umalis sa bahay okay lang. The catch is, today is our 3rd long test in Math. Hindi ko pa naman masyadong gets yung lesson kasi hindi ko pa nababasa yung book.. hehehehe!! So yun yung ginawa ko nung nagising ako.. I read the book!! Medyo natagalan ako kasi medyo mahaba din yun tapos kailangan ko pang balik balikan kasi ngayon ko lang nabasa.. hehehehe!! Nung 11:30 na, I decided to go to school para lang makapaglaro ng basketball with pat and the rest. So nakarating ako ng ateneo mga 12:00 n.n. Pumunta muna akong speed room kasi may PS dun e.. astig makakapaglaro ako!! wahehehehe!! I saw pat and alden there tapos nagmimeeting sila ni ericka for the halloween party. Dapat 1:30-2:00 p.m. pa ako e.. kasama ko dapat si ishi.. kaso nakisabay na lang ako kanila pat at alden. So after nun, nagpunta kaming covered courts ni pat. Hindi ko rin naman siya nakalaro kasi may p.e. sila e.. asar!! hehehehe!! Matagal ko ng hindi nakakalaro scope boys. After playing, I went to the speed room para makilaro!! Tapos nung 2:00, nagpunta na akong library para mag-aral uli. Hindi ko pa kasi tapos yung book.. hehehehe!! So nung 3:00 p.m. nagtest na kami. Nakipagappear nga muna ako kay angie e before ng test para good luck!! hehehehehe!! Pagkatapos ng test sabi niya sa akin daw napunta lahat ng luck kasi yung number 4 di niya nasagot!! Pero actually pareho kaming minalas e kasi di ko naman nasagot number 5!! hehehehehe!! hirap ng test!!

ANIMO LASALLE

After ng Math, so lumabas na kami ng room. Ako, si angie, si chris, si letty at si mimi. So nung naghiwahiwalay na kami, ang kasama ko na lang si angie. So lakad lakad lang kaming 2 tapos usap usap.. hehehehe!! Ang cute cute ni angie ang cute cute ni angie!! So yun, after nun pumunta kaming library. Pareho kasi kaming magreresearch. Pero after some time, umalis na din ako para manood ng ADMU vs. DLSU sa speed room. Obvious naman kung sino panalo e!! Wala ngang thrill yung game kasi tambak e!! Magaling DLSU e!! Animo Lasalle!! So.. that's my day!!

room

2004-09-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

ROOM

I am relieved you finally came to your senses. I thought your eyes would forever be blinded, searching in the dark waiting for the light that will never come. I am relieved that you were able to realize that you were just trapped inside a room that was not really meant for you. I was thrilled to see you hold the doorknob, twist it, and leave that room for good. You know we have always been outside that room, waiting for you, to share you some light if you want to. That room was not really meant for you. There are many rooms out there, waiting for you. Just give it time. I'm sorry if I stabbed you. I just had to do so to put you to your senses. I do not blame you for entering that room, trying to make that room yours. You were just blinded. Anyone would have been blinded. It could have been me who entered that room. It could have been me who have fallen. I would have fallen. Still, i preferred not to. Thanks for pulling me out. If you were not there holding on to me, I would have fallen. I know only one person could find light in that room. That room is already occupied. You are not alone. You are not alone in experiencing this. I am sorry it had to be this way. I hope we all learned something. I'm really sorry. I know things will never be the same specially for you. But still, I hope it could still be. It's sad to see such a beatiful puzzle break up just because of impossible things. We are the puzzle. We lost you for some time. I hope we could make that beautiful picture again even though you are already faded. I hope this would never happen again. This was not only a lesson for you but for each one of us. Im really sorry. *sigh*

friendship

2004-09-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

FRIENDSHIP

here's another quote.. i hope everyone would agree on this!

one day, LOVE and FRIENDSHIP met.. LOVE asked "why do you exist if I already exist?" FRIENDSHIP replied "to put a smile where you leave tears"..

o diba astig? wahehehehehehe!

another tuesday

2004-09-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

ANOTHER TUESDAY

KODAK

well.. it was just another tuesday for me.. hehehehe!! nothing special except for the picture taking in kodak and the IAC basketball game! last night.. at approximately 12:00m.n. ngtxt c angie!! syempre kilig ako!! jwk lng!! hehehe!! she was asking 7 of us a favor.. samahan daw namin siya sa picture taking sa kodak kasi parang kailangan ng kodak ng barkada stuff para sa ad daw nila? syempre oo naman ako.. c angie yun e!! hehehehehe!! binola ko pa nga siya nun e.. parang sinabi ko "syempre naman para sayo.. ang cute cute mo eh!!".. tpos un.. this day we had the picture taking at about 2-3p.m. (ang cute talaga niya!!) hehehehe!! i saw something in her na hindi ko nakita before!! ang kulit pala niya.. hehehehehe!! bata pa nga talaga!! so yun.. okay naman.. mej nakakaantok nga lang.. tapos after nun math na.. i was really planning to cut math kasi hindi naman si sir rhyan ung teacher ngayon.. pero ayaw nung 3 kong blockmates.. hehehehe!! so nagmath na lang ako.. buti na lang!! nacancel yung meeting ni sir!! so yun!! hehehehe!!

IAC

after ng math.. i went to the library tapos i saw besty!! hehehehehe.. kumain muna kami tapos nagusap kami tungkol sa mga IMPOSSIBLE RELATIONSHIPS!! tapos 5:50p.m. na.. so i have to go para maglaro na sa IAC kahit HINDI NAMAN AKO MARUNONG!! hehehehehe.. so nung una sumama c besty.. nanood siya sandali pero napiss-off ko ata siya nung time na yun.. sinabihan ko kasi ng "sit" hehehehe!!.. sori po talaga.. pero ok lng naman daw.. so yun PANALO KAMI sa IAC.. magaling team mates ko!! hehehehehehe!! they rock!! ayun.. so umuwi na ako afterwards!!.. well.. just another tuesday for me..

quote

2004-09-06T09:58:00.000+08:00

FIRST POST

yes.. sa wakas makakapagpost na rin ako!! sori po mica ngayon lang po ako nakapagpost!! hehehehehe!! onga pala tnx po sa blog!! ummm.. wala akong masabi e!! iisip muna q.. hehehe!! tsaka isa pa paalis na ako.. pupunta na kong school.. matagal pa naman ako magbihis!! popost na lang ako ng qt.. ndi para skn ung qt pero sakali lang diba.. may tamaan hehehehehehe!!

here goes.. "sabi nila, masakit pag hindi ka nakikita nang mahal mo dahil may iba na siyang tinitignan.. pero mas masakit pala na kahit wala na siyang tinitignang iba, hindi ka pa rin niya makita.."

ung quote naman na ito hindi para i-put down ung mga tao diba.. pra lng malaman ng tao ung limits ng mga relationship diba? kung talagang kayo.. kayo!! pero kung di talaga pwede.. wag na pagpilitan!! hehehehe!! kc diba minsan iniisip natin na pwede.. tapos pagpipilitan pa natin kasi iniisip natin sayang naman.. pero siguro dapat magdalawang isip muna tayo kasi kung hindi.. tayo rin ang masasaktan sa huli!!